Sometimes, when I’m talking to people, I worry about my eyes. I think, am I blinking too much? Too little? Are they gaping like mouths or squinting like button holes? Are they telling all my secrets? Do they know that, behind them, I’m just mellowing, like a wet towel on the floor? Do they know I put cheap mascara on them, and that I never grew up past seven? Do they know? Do they know? Eventually, I just become one great set of eyes, trying to swallow the whole world. And everyone looks away. They play with their fingernails and whistle, because they’re too polite to point out these hungry, greedy eyes that are taking all the looking. Sometimes my eyes get angry. They stomp off and terrorize Tokyo/Manhattan/Salt Lake City. Little screaming people rush between the toes of my eyes. They look like beads in a kaleidoscope. I smash a few buildings. They scatter like ball bearings. The National Guard is called in, with little toy planes and little toy tanks and little toy soldiers. I beat my chest. The helicopters look like dandelion seeds. I look. You can see everything from the Empire State Building. I look and I look, and everyone screams and I look. Do they know?
Then the eyes get homesick. The kaleidoscope becomes people, the seeds are flying machines, the toy soldiers are scared kids, and I blink.
You were sneaker-shod,
skinny-armed, and you
had just a little
madness
Two firefly eyes, and
One ragged smile,
all teeth.
Sneaker-slapping, shirt-tail flapping
Knuckles, fists, and dirty knees,
Like in those books you loved to read.
Books of big-armed men shod in leather, and
paper tongues, and
big black bugs, and
gears and wheels and chains, and
justice, and
fire, and
stuff.
And colours like no colours are in life.
You found a world made up for you
with just a little madness too.

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